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By the time we returned from Detroit Hansadutta dasa had beaten everyone to the gun, and had his men waiting for us. They had already spoken to all of Hansadutta’s disciples, claiming that I was an envious snake and had been thrown out. The GBC had warned me not to tell the disciples what I knew about Hansadutta’s idiosyncratic behavior. Laxmimoni devi, who had decided that she and Jagadisa dasa would take over the school when it moved, had taken advantage of the chaos, spoken to the teachers against the relationship between Padyavali devi and myself, thus creating even further chaos in the ranks. Hansadutta dasa found out about the rebellion in the school, and then demanded to have the school remain in his zone. Jayatirtha dasa, in his usual weak and compromising way, was entirely bewildered and did not have enough common sense to know who to believe. He didn’t want to give the impression to Hansadutta’s disciples that the GBC was siding with the rascal Rocana, because he wanted them to stay and continue collecting for the temple. I was locked out of my room/office, and treated like a criminal. All the Srila Prabhupada disciples were put on the spot and individually asked whether they wanted to stay or leave, without being fully informed as to the truth behind the sudden upheaval. The disciples were totally bewildered. One minute I was their siksa guru, the next I was a demon envious of their diksa guru, His Divine Grace Hansadutta Swami.

There was great discussion going on about what was going to happen with the school, and if the school was going at all. I was not allowed to be involved in any of these conversations. I was confined to a room and was called in whenever the GBC’s, Jagadisa and Jayatirtha, needed to tell me something. After a few days I was told to take Kurma Rupa and a small car, my clothes and books, and head out to Philadelphia where I would await further orders. We were give a small sum of money for gas and nothing for motels, even though it was a several day journey in the middle of winter. We had to stop at Kurma Rupa’s brother’s place in the mid-west for a shower. Once we arrived in Philadelphia, we found there were no preparations made for the school. They had no money, and the building was in very bad repair. Hansadutta was already politicking to get the car returned, and was making various ridiculous accusations about myself and Padyavali devi. Kurma Rupa dasa and I were then told to go to the New York City temple and speak with Adi Kesava Swami. It had been already decided by the time we arrived that Kurma Rupa dasa would stay in New York, and that I was to be sent to England. There was no discussion. We were just shuffled around like new recruits in the army. I later discovered that the GBC wanted me out of the country because they were afraid I would talk too much about Hansadutta’s activities. Divide and conquer was the motto. Make sure the leaders were separated. No consideration that my daughter was part of the exodus of students who were finally set free from Seattle by Hansadutta’s men. My wife had left the movement a few months before, leaving me with our only child, then eight years old. So, Bhakti Mati lost her mother and father within a few months. In my estimation, this traumatic set of circumstances has caused her permanent psychological damage.

It certainly wasn’t like the days when Srila Prabhupada was present. Things like this could never have happened without His knowledge, and one would have the final recourse to approach Him directly or through the mail. The zonal acarya mentality was so infectious that it quickly spread throughout the second echelon leaders like Adi Kesava Swami, a sycophant of the powerful zonal acarya, Tamal Krishna Gosvami, his sannyasa guru. The way these individuals treated their Godbrothers was so offensive, condescending and autocratic. They were puffed up with false prestige, egotism gone wild, especially those trained up by Tamal Krishna Gosvami. Their smiling faces revealed iron teeth when anyone disagreed with them. Manipulation was their trademark, and their bidding was done by mindless strongmen carrying guns - the final persuasive power. If all else failed, they simply used brute force.

In retrospect, it would seem that there were other options for me at the time, but I was a “wet behind the ears” type of devotee, like the majority of disciples at that time. We had been serving in isolated areas with very little association with the GBC. We had been idealistically following the perfect philosophy with the perfect Spiritual Master for years, and as far as we understood, we were doing everything correctly - following the principles, chanting our rounds, attending the full program, and making all our personal considerations secondary. So, we were naively expecting that Krsna was going to protecting us from being exploited, and that everything both good and evil that happened to us we should blindly accept, without protest, as Krsna’s mercy. This innocent, childlike attitude on the part of grown men was a contributing factor in the all too easy takeover of the movement by those who, for years, were perfecting their skills and taking advantage of our misconceptions of the philosophy. It’s not that this surrendered attitude isn’t part of our Vaisnava philosophy, but it applies exclusively to the sastras and the completely purified guru. We learned hard lessons from such mistakes, and experienced the direct effects of un-harnessed power and overwhelming greed. Prudence is also a virtue, as Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur so eloquently stated:

Should man the Lord of all around
from common sense depart?
Man's glory is in common sense
dictating us the grace.

Was it common sense to go against our internal intelligence on the dictates of those who were just a few years older in both devotional service and life? Now I think not, but then I was admittedly confused. So, I ended up in a drafty, damp brahmicary quarters at the Bhaktivedanta Manor, 10,000 miles from Seattle, with no service, no friends, and no explanations. I eventually got over it and I gradually regained my composure, only to have to go through it all over again with Jayatirtha dasa.

There are two obvious areas of analysis: 1) Hansadutta dasa, and 2) ISKCON and its governing system, post Srila Prabhupada’s maha-samadhi.

As I mentioned earlier, I am not a professional psychologist or psychiatrist, so my abilities are limited and somewhat speculative. I believe, however, that I am correct in assuming that this individual has serious mental problems which were exasperated by the AIDS (acarya imitation disease). In Hansadutta dasa’s case, I am of the opinion that neither the original psychosis nor the AIDS have been dealt with sincerely, properly or professionally. In fact, there is every indication that Hansadutta is still in deep denial in regards to his dangerous condition, and should not be trusted until such time as these problems are admitted to and dealt with in the proper manner.

I have studied his written material, “Srila Prabhupada, His Movement and You”, as well as “Where’s the Mercy”, “Uncommunicated Incommunicado”, “Where’s the Honesty”, and other information on his website. Although he is well versed in Krsna conscious terminology and a practiced preacher of the philosophy, the dishonesty is evident to those who have had close association with this individual and observed his expertise at putting on a wide variety of personae at the drop of a hat. Hansadutta dasa has perfected his skills and his characters to near perfection. I have witnessed him crying real tears of humility one minute, and as soon as the person he wanted to impress left the room, the tears immediately ceased and he was cursing them out. I can recall when the GBC sent their great sentimentalist, Satsvarupa dasa Goswami, to Berkeley to try to talk sense into Hansadutta dasa. I happened to be visiting at the time, and had an opportunity to secretly view the meeting. I saw Hansadutta work his magic on the unsuspecting Satsvarupa dasa Goswami, who left thinking that he had penetrated his consciousness. But no sooner was Satsvarupa dasa Goswami out the door than Hansadutta was bad mouthing him and swearing a blue streak. I was dumbfounded. What seemed even more amazing is that his longtime associates on the GBC didn’t seem to recognize this level of deception. But, people believe what they want to believe, and it served them to believe that he’d had a change of heart. As he wrote in his apology letter to Urdhvaga Prabhu:

“I did not write, because before doing so, I wanted to fathom the actual depth and cause of my complete degradation and disgraceful behavior after the disappearance of Srila Prabhupada, especially in connection with illegal assumption of the initiating zonal Guru Acarya activities in which I played such a destructive role.”

“Although I see everything in a sane, sober and proper perspective now, it has taken me more than 10 years of painful, anguished and repentant soul searching to understand my problem....”

Within my own mind I find some major discrepancies with the letter itself, as well as it’s contradictory contents. Firstly of all, why just copy a brief letter written to one follower? Why not write a far more detailed and descriptive letter to all the “kidnapped” disciples as well as all the Godbrothers and sisters, including Srila Prabhupada. He caused immeasurable pain and anxiety to everyone inside and outside the movement. But as he puts it, “I caused the spiritual ruin of hundreds and thousands of sincere, aspiring devotees, whom I stole away (kidnapped) from Srila Prabhupada (the Founder-Acarya) by presenting myself as a bonafide acarya, spiritual master, when in fact I was not even able to control my senses any more than an ordinary karmi.” The fact is that his activities were far more degraded than that of the normal behavior of a common karmi.

The accumulated anxiety, pain and suffering of all the innocent devotees, both those who he deceptively initiated as well as the many young children, exploited women and Godbrothers, what to speak of the offenses to the maha-bhagavata Srila Prabhupada, not to mention the millions of innocent karmis who were negatively infected with doubt about the validity of Srila Prabhupada’s message. All this reaction as a result of his nefarious activities was a million times greater than he is admitting to here, and a million times greater than his own suffering to date. When we read carefully, we observe that Hansadutta dasa is mainly emphasizing his own suffering and trying to convince the reader that he has been cured and is now sane, sober and fully rectified. He tells us he is seeing from the proper perspective now because he finally recognized, after 10 years, that he had the acarya imitation disease. Seeing that he was instantly manifesting the symptoms after accepting the bait of being a zonal acarya, we can only assume that he was badly infected well before Srila Prabhupada departed. In fact, this was also the cause of his and ISKCON’s problems in Germany. He tells us that he has been cured, but this letter indicates that he is still badly infected. Hansadutta dasa still hankers for the title of Rtvik-acarya, the only straw left to grab. This 10 year silence was not due to the purification process taking place.

Now, after getting married and running a trailer court for 10 years, he is still looking for a way back to fame and fortune. He is thinking, “if I support and back-up the Rtvik proponents, who are putting forth the appointment letter as their main piece of evidence - which happens to have my name on it - then at least it is better than remaining in obscurity and boredom.” In reality, there hasn’t been any true penance or austerity. There have been no signs of renewed enthusiasm for preaching single handily on the streets or door to door. Hansadutta has spent no time chanting and walking on parikrama, or living in Srila Prabhupada’s austere quarters at the Radha Damodar temple for a few years, eating only rice and dahl, constantly reading Srila Prabhupada’s books, serving and begging forgiveness from Srila Prabhupada in this humble manner. No, instead he has been living comfortably off the money of his wife, an ex-disciple, in sunny California. She probably thought she was joining Srila Prabhupada’s sankirtan movement, and instead was duped into accepting Hansadutta dasa as her guru, and on the basis of that relationship a bond was established that was exploited by Hansadutta. As we are taught by Srila Prabhupada, “everything belongs to Krsna and should be used in His service”, especially the money of the surrendered disciple of the maha-bhagavata guru. Hansadutta admits he kidnapped these disciples, which I assume includes her and her moneys, which he used exclusively in his own service and sense gratification.

So, we are now supposed to unconditionally consider his letter, which took 10 years to write, to be both frank and honest. Hansadutta dasa claims that he knows that Srila Prabhupada has forgiven him based on his admission, that he has been chanting the holy names attentively for an undisclosed length of time, which has resulted in all the pratistha being removed, which can only mean that he is a pure devotee again. This letter, on face value, is supposed to stand as the only evidence of his complete reformation. We are expected to take his trusted word that he is now purified again, willing and ready to assume his rightful position as a Rtvik acarya. The position of being Srila Prabhupada’s representative, according to his definition, is an exalted position held only by an advanced disciple who has the developed the qualifications to be a siksa guru. It was Srila Prabhupada’s causeless mercy to include Hansadutta’s name on the official list in the first place, but eNude Meetingstrippeddevi Ca B1bd1a 2010 07 Search Label Misoprostol Meeting Stripped Devi The Haren rsnas - Current Vaisnava Schools of Thought - Writings of Rocana dasar Meeting Stripped Devi 2012x-art Meeting Stripped Devi Devi kNude Meetingstrippeddevi Ca B1bd1a 2010 07 Search Label Misoprostol Meeting Stripped Devi The Haren rsnas - Current Vaisnava Schools of Thought - Writings of Rocana dasar x Stripped Meeting Stripped Devi Mpegs